Posted September 26th, 2019 by Werty
in your mind. i mean, it's not like i'm real.
September 26th, 2019
i can tell what you're trying to do.
you're trying to distance yourself from me.
i'm okay with that, to be honest.
but i'm not okay with how you're doing it.
december 31st. 2018.
you looked at me.
you held up your pointer finger.
"you are my #1."
the funny thing is?
for the longest time, i believed you.
this year has gone by fast.
last year, i was abandoned.
you found me.
you restored me.
you gave me the hope for myself i had lost.
and i felt good again.
i felt human again.
you helped me through the biggest crisis of my life so far.
and i'm very, very grateful.
as the year went by, we talked.
you were confident.
but as soon as your flaws were visible, you'd hide away.
you'd expose mine.
you'd let the blame rest on the person everyone would willingfully blame.
the person who even i'd blame.
now i can see
you're spending more time with her.
we still talk
but it's distant
and all my hope
all my love
it all slipped away.
and i realized you aren't the only person in this world.
so i'm okay.
don't remain silent.
if you don't want to be friends, so be it.
shout it to the heavens, for all i care.
but please, don't do it like this.
tell me everything.
and then we can g our seperate ways, and i can finally have my head
clear once more, ready to find a friend
who won't stop loving me for who i am.
if we grow distant
but let's talk first.
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