Posted March 28th, 2020 by sparklespirit
March 28th, 2020
Hello random people of the internet. I haven't been on KidPub in years, since I was around 13 years of age. Back then, times seemed so simple: long hazy school days filled with lecturing, long nights playing minecraft, deciding what highschool I wanted to go to.
Now I'm a highschooler- more specifcally- a sophomore. Life is- well- more "complicated". I've lost friends, yet I've also gained some. I've spent countless nights- crying over that boy or that grade. I've also spent hours laughing, reminicing about the past- and somewhat- enjoying the present. I've learned some difficult things- and in result- I believe I have grown significantly as a person. Yet here I am, returning to this old website that I used as a creative vent for myself (because "creative people don't succeed in life lelin").
I used to hate myself, in fact, I struggle daily with self image. It's sickening, seeing all the old stories that I had posted- dripping with a need of being accepted. I'm better now, thank the lord, but I still struggle somewhat with tiny things- which I dont feel comfortable mentioning. Now, as I'm older and boys are getting mixed into the equation, I understand the crucialness of being beatiful. I despise this- why is this normal in today's society? When we are surrounded by artifical beauty everyday- such as in magizines and instagram posts. Its unfair- yet Im sure everyone deals with this reality.
Anyways, this will probably go down as nothingness- and who knows- maybe in a few years, the older me (and hopefully a much more mature me) will return to this sentimental website. I feel like I have much more to say, yet now my mind is blank- ehh. Thanks for reading this jumble of thoughts.
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