Posted June 4th, 2017 by melanberry
June 4th, 2017
I'm not really sure.
I mean, there's this-
I don't really know how to say this.
There's this person I think about- a lot.
He’s smart, funny, nice, outgoing, and pretty good-looking.
He's also leaving my life in a few weeks.
He's everything I'm not.
I'm stupid, awkward, mean, shy, and ugly.
I'm not really sure what's happening to my mind.
I figure it's the stupid pop culture that tells me that I gotta find myself a man by age 14 or else I'm not “normal”.
It's probably that, isn't it?
I think that if I had longer conversations than,
“Hey can I borrow a pencil?”
“Thanks. That's a good pencil.”
I'd be happier.
I'm not even the one who's asking the questions.
I wish I had the courage to say,
“What's your favorite color?”
“See you around!”
I'm nearly never the one to initiate the conversation.
When I do, it's a miracle he hears me.
I could barely hear myself when I'm talking to him.
It's strange that I want to know more about him like this.
Isn't it strange?
Oh, did you say something?
Oh, it was nothing.
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